It does not stop and ask for permissions.
It does not wait for you to pack your bags.
It sure as hell does not come with warnings or guarantees.
It just happens and with me, it brought on a car accident on Friday evening. I have been in accidents before. But this was the worst that I have been in, ever.
The day was as ordinary as it could get.
Started off with the last day of Shell Life training in the morning where I facilitated an engagement session with a leader. Lunch was the same buffet that we had been eating the entire week and was getting to be quite boring. Goodbyes were being said among sleepy yawns from fellow Graduates as the effects of the partying from the previous night started manifesting itself.
I was right there, in the middle of it all. Conversations with colleagues, discussions on politics and whatnot. Even spent a good 45 minutes trying to troubleshoot my locked laptop password. I left the hotel at 4pm and I had no idea that 2.5 hours later I was going to find myself drenched to the bone, in the middle of fast moving highway with my car smashed on its left side.
Traffic was as expected. Congested and slow moving as the population of KL drove out of the city for the long 3-day weekend. Being super exhausted from the week did not help my temper, but knowing that I had Monday off was sweet knowledge. Definitely half the weekend plan was to catch up on much needed sleep. And then maybe some on the very much neglected dissertation preparation. I remembered my mom's annoyed voice at the other end of a phone conversation when I called to ask what was dinner that night. Even then, it did not occur to me that 15 minutes later I'd find myself staring out the passenger window of my car only to see a car coming closer and closer to impact my still car that had skidded in the middle of the north-south highway.
And then in the typical mood shift of the weather these days, it was pouring cats and dogs. The N-S highway post Seremban rest area was a slow moving nightmare. I knew I could not have been the only one cursing the traffic congestion in the sea of cars that was stuck in the same jam. Driving a manual car in that situation is beyond tedious. Traffic cleared for a bit as soon as I passed Senawang exit and the car could finally move to third gear. The rain had not slowed its merciless pour. The road was slippery and the driver in front of me was in a mighty rush. He was tailgating the car in front and frequently displayed the red break lights to me. I decided to start keeping my distance after about 10 minutes of this. 30 seconds later, the world spun.
Because that car had hit emergency breaks and its tail lights were blazing red. I panicked thinking of front impact that may happen at my 70kmph if I did not slow my car significantly. I slammed on my break pedal, flooring it completely and my steering wheel got a life of its own. My car spun 3 times from the right-most lane toward the left and stopped smack in the middle of the middle lane. Cars starts slamming on breaks everywhere around me, some swerving to the other two lanes to avoid hitting me, others slowing down significantly to note my car number.
No one stopped to help.
And then, I looked to my left and I saw the car coming. Saw the shock on the driver's face as she realized that there is car in the middle of the road which she is approaching at a high speed. Realizing that there maybe there is not enough time to slow her car down.
I do not know what my thought were at that moment. Except for that I had not seen my parents in a week. That I had not spoken to my brother in a week. That life is so damn short.
My car is smashed. It is in a workshop at the moment. It is so badly wrecked that there is a chance they may not be able to fix it.
And I am here, 3 days later typing this from a coffee shop with my favourite cup of tea, sitting beside my best friend having come out of the accident unscathed without a scratch on my skin.
I am not here to tell anyone to quit their jobs and start checking everything off their "Life To-do List". Neither am I here to emphasize on road safety.
This is just a record of an accident that happened to me, one evening in my life. To remind me that life happens and if I have not filled every breathable moment of it with memories and experiences that tell me I am living... then its about time I did.