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What could have been...  Wednesday, May 12, 2010   Our actions, thoughts and decisions today shape the paths that we see ahead of us tomorrow. This is something that everyone subconciously knows and yet theres hardly any mention of it. This is something that my lecturer from Business Systems class started off one of his lectures with recently. Its been there sitting quietly in my mind, dormant, all this while. Everyone has memories of good times and bad times and really ugly times. More often than not when we do remember these times, if its a good time we reminiscence of how we'd like to go back to those times, those days. Or we even revisit the places and the people who may have made that memory possible. If its bad or ugly, generally most regret whatever led to cause the memory to be a bad one. Or try to forget it, put it out of their minds and try to divert their attention to happier things around them. Why not, after all life is not for regrets. I've never been a big fan of regrets. Heck, I'd proudly admit that I have very few regrets in life. Simply because even during the worse of decisions that need to be made, I've always done what my instincts told me to do. I probably always will. Which is why sometimes I wonder at the twists and turns that have brought me where I am today. That the place where I stand on today is not where I saw myself standing at that one point of time. And then I wonder, what were my actions and decisions that placed me where I am now and not where I thought I should have been. Do I regret my actions, now that I see them from the point of view of a 24 year old? Would I have acted differently, taken different decisions had I known what I'd feel many years down the road? Nah, I don't regret what I did nor where I am now. I just wonder. I wonder because I suddenly saw someone else where I envisioned myself. Where I thought, very naively, very selfishly, that only I was the best fit for that position. Interesting how what I thought had ceased to matter, could still trigger so many emo-thoughts. And then, I cannot help but think that my actions today, the decisions that I make today may not be the best of what a 30 year old me thinks. But one is unable to predict the future or the choices that come with it. All one can do is to go on living without regrets and accept that to err is only human and to forgive divine. Because as easy as it is to forgive others, to forgive oneself for mistakes made in the past that impact today becomes very hard. And then to learn to laugh at those mistakes a few years down the road is probably the lesson that my lecturer was ultimately trying to pass on to us. Amazing, how what one learns within a business systems class can be so easily applied to the quirks of life. || MizJinX's thoughts || <11:41:00 AM> 0 comments